8.20.2011

not here.

And I realize why things going on around me on this college campus make me feel weary:

This isn't my home.

Going back to Birmingham won't fix the way these things make me feel.

Why? Because it's sin and it's always around me...and as long as I'm on this earth, this sin will make me feel dirty, uncomfortable, and wrong.

Why can't I figure out the perfect rules? Because sometimes life isn't about the rules...it's about the One who created this world...and giving glory to Him for everything he has done for me.

Why do I feel weird in this place?

Because I'm an alien to this planet and it will NEVER be home.

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That doesn't mean that I'm not enjoying myself here on the Plains. I am! But I always knew I was naive to what goes on in the world and the more I'm exposed to it the more I hate it. And the more I pray that God will work in my heart to hate the things he hates and to love like he loves.

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But I'll still say War Eagle...because I do like this college place! It's just not my ultimate home...and I'm not expecting to find it here.


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You're the center of the universe
Everything was made in You, Jesus
Breath of every living thing
Everyone was made for you

You hold everything together
You hold everything together

Christ be the center of our lives
Be the place we fix our eyes
Be the center of our lives

You're the center of the universe
Everything was made in You, Jesus
Breath of every living thing
Everyone was made for you

We lift our eyes to heaven
We wrap our eyes around your life
We life out eyes to heaven,
to YOU



4 comments:

silenthistorian said...

glad you posted that. glad i read it.

Abby said...

"Oh, who will come and go with me? I'm bound for the Promise Land."

I know you are and will be a city on a hill to light this dark word! Your "happy thoughts" will not fade for you have the joy of the Lord.

Love ya sister-in-Christ!

annie said...

"blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." God loves those souls who sorrow over sin, who look around and don't quite see where and how they're supposed to "fit" into darkness. continue to shine your light, to seek solace in the almighty, and to surround yourself with people who can mourn right along with you.

(have you heard this c.s. lewis quote: "If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world.")

Owl of the Desert said...

Praying for ya often. Lean on Him during these times; He's always with you.

"I'm but a stranger here; heaven is my home."